What I Wanted Most

Theme / Personal Reflection

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The morning dawn lightly grazed our kitchen plants.  Sitting in an 80’s pinstripe lazy boy recliner located in the corner of the living room, I struggled to enjoy the new day.  The worries and anxieties from my previous week wore heavy on my heart.  I needed relief — the sooner the better.  A solution popped in my head, “I want a donut.”  Awe, yes — the donut seemed to have the key to turn my day right around.  Rocking back and forth, I put together plans to purchase this tasty, sugary, deep-fried goodness. 

Food is a phenomenal thing.  Not only does it have the power to bring nourishment to our bodies, but it also has the potential for incredible taste.  While on one had it can bring healing and energy, on the other it can bring destruction and fatigue. 

How many things in our lives carry a similar opportunity to be healing or destructive?  To be a blessing or a curse?  When I’m stressed, sometimes I’ll intentionally use the opportunity to draw closer to God.  Other times, my laziness settles for complaining about the shortcomings of others to medicate my own discontented heart. 

Hebrews 12:11 states, “No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful.  Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it."  It makes me think through the story of Adam and Eve.  They were given everything they needed in the garden, including the opportunity to practice discipline. 

Discipline and sacrifice seem to be a key in the Kingdom of God.  Choosing what we want most over what we want now.  That morning what I wanted now was to numb my pain with the sweet taste of a maple bar paired with a black cup of coffee.  However, what I wanted most was affirmation from God. 

What will you choose?

Ryan De Amicis

Wealth Advisor

408.758.6413

ryan@christianwm.com